I am a very lucky man – I’ve got an amazing wife and am the father to three wonderful kids. Lylli was born on Halloween in 2008, Gracie was born November 2010 and although she only lived for 17 months, she will remain as much a part of this family as the rest of us, and Mickey Gray, our first son, was born in June of 2012. I’m not going to say that life has gone exactly as I would have wanted, but it is a good life and I am determined to make the best of it.

This blog is an attempt to document my quest to become a dad that my family can be proud of.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Here we go again

Nobody is ever going to accuse me of being blessed with good timing.  I am doing my best to try and stay optimistic about things, but I’ll admit, I’m being tested.  I went downstairs a couple weeks ago to assess what needs to be done to get our basement bathroom in order – this will  include removing sheetrock, etc due to some standing water we had as a result of condensation from the air conditioner not draining properly.  This resulted in a little mold – not a lot, but obviously something that needs to be taken care of.  While checking it out, I broke off a chunk of the sheetrock at the bottom and took a look – somewhere in between that and washing my hands, I must have itched my left eye - it became a little irritated.  I’m sure I don’t have to remind most that know me of the eye issues I’ve had in the past – well guess what – they’re back!!  It appears that the irritation was enough to start an infection in my eye -- I went to the doctor last Monday – he gave me a weeks worth of prednisone and referred me to the rheumatologist.   Well today was the last day of the prednisone and I could barely drive into work.  I so don’t want to go back to the rheumatologist but have to – He wanted me to stay on the drugs continuously and treat me as a rheumatoid patient – I am so nervous about that because the drugs make me feel so old and crummy – and as for timing, the bloating from the steroids should be just about at its peak on May 7th when we go for family pictures and attend the wonderful benefit for Gracie (more on that later) -  we all know I don’t need help in the bloating category in the first place and admit after the effects kick in, I have a tough time leaving the house due to the embarrassment of what it does to my appearance.  Last time this happened, I was poked and prodded for a countless number of tests – At that point, the only thing the doctor suggested was that I appear to be one of those unfortunate people that are prone to eye issues.  One thing we know is that my body doesn’t react well to stress, which isn’t good because the stress of the eye issue is adding stress which adds to the eye issue --   Whatever it is, I pray that it goes away quickly – I feel so bad about adding any burden to Carrie in this already difficult time.  Nobody needs me anymore irritable than I already am – A few times this weekend, I found myself not being as patient with Lylli as I should be with a fun loving two year old.  I know I already ask so much from everybody and don’t feel like I give near as much in return, but I could use any extra prayers you can spare that this eye thing will subside so we can enjoy our precious family time together before Boston.

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